I’ve realized that my weeks aren’t going “good” or “bad” because of the quarantine but because of how I’ve been deciding to see things. It indeed does suck if we’re honest because this whole time I’ve been blaming and judging everything because of the restrictions that have been put on us. However, if people aren’t changing or keep acting like children, it’s because that’s who they are! It sucks it took me this long to realize it finally. Anyways, how have you all been? I know life is somewhat sucky at the moment. Can you believe I’ve spent 8h and 30 minutes as a whole on Netflix this week! That tells you everything. My days have been consisting of work, Netflix, work.
I’ve come to the point like many of my classmates that I no longer care for school. The not being there makes me feel like It’s over. I forget about my assignments and haven’t been making it to classes because I’ve been working every day in the mornings. I just don’t see the point anymore. My mentality is, “ Will I fail a course for not submitting for four weeks?” Well, now that I spelled it out, I think I probably will. Anyways what I’m trying to say is that I’ve had to push myself extra this week. I have no motivation actually to do any of the work. Maybe it’s the fact that I’m currently going through personal issues, and like I said in my last blog, it’s been tough for me to push those two things away from each other. Even though many people see me as a quitter, I am not! I’m the kinda person that will always say she’ll do something but never comes through with it or what my beautiful culture calls it “puro osico.” I’ll say and say I’m over school put at the end of the day my report card won’t come in with a C. Everyone around me is still going crazy over the virus. My mother said she doesn’t care if the quarantine ends; she’s not leaving the house in another month.
Good thing I have a car now because I can’t stand being in this house anymore. This whole lockdown thing has gone wrong for my family; all we do is fight. We all literally can’t stand each other anymore. I can’t wait for it to end so I can leave for Mexico. No, but on a serious note, I think I might spend summer over in Mexico. It’ll be suitable for my family. If we talk about work, nothing has changed. If you want real advice, though, don’t eat there. We’ve been taking measures to protect ourselves but not the people. They don’t care about the customers there, so please be kind to yourself and don’t eat there. I kind of miss seeing my classmates even though I only talk to like three people I miss seeing their faces. I do hope they’re doing fine and that this virus hasn’t affected any of their relatives. As well for my teachers, I hope they’re all doing fine. I hope this whole experiment just helps us appreciate the things we give for granted; school, church, work, movies, stores, food.